Today I am feeling like a bad mom.
We are on day 12.5 of Christmas vacation. The boys fighting seems to be increasing as my patience is decreasing. Simply put, we are not coexisting very well together right now.
I’m newly back into the full-time stay-at-home-mom gig and remembering just how hard this is. I’m thankful for this opportunity to be with my boys more and to write in my spare time on here. I’m not writing this to complain, but just to honestly share.
The boys’ fight A LOT. Like, I just typed into google “what to do with your kids hit each other a lot.”
The fighting feels so out of control and I, in turn, feel guilty wondering if my parenting is to blame for this. E + A also love each other deeply and can be SO sweet together. There are plenty of really amazing moments. But the hitting and fighting and toy feuding is getting really old.
My boys are not quiet, nor are they calm. They are loud, strong-willed and very spirited. I love their brazen personalities and I don’t fear that they will turn into wonderful grown men someday. It’s the here and now that I’m struggling with because spending 24/7 with two high-energy and very strong-willed little boys is not a walk in the park.
Like I wrote about just yesterday, I am trying to choose joy in the good and bad times this year. Today has been a hard day and here I am trying to choose joy, trying to be patient and trying to figure out how to guide and direct these little men toward gentleness and kindness.
I’m sharing this in hopes that maybe some of you have experience with these spicy-types and can offer me some wisdom/advice? If your kids are quieter and gentle-spirited, whatever works for you in parenting, is probably not going to be very effective for my boys. But if you read about my boys above and you were like “YES and YES”, then please leave me a comment or shoot me an email. I’d love to hear what has worked for you in navigating the hurdles that come with parenting intense, strong-willed kids.
And if you see this today, I would appreciate your prayers. I’m asking God for patience , for wisdom and for peace to fill my spirit even on hard days like today.
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I am right there with you sister! And I only have one boy! I took him to school today, hoping to have a few free hours today after being home sick with him the beginning on the week, only to find his preschool is still closed till next week. I almost cried in the parking lot. I love being a mom, and there are some glorious moments, but it’s also extremely hard – especially for an introvert who need quiet alone time to fill her cup. I haven’t had any moment alone since the beginning of December, and I’m about to breakdown. I’ll be praying for you today.
Hi Erica – I’m sorry I meant to write back sooner. That sounds like a really tough moment and I bet the week was hard for you guys! Praying for strength for you, too. And that Jesus would fill you up even when your “cup” is feeling empty. Hugs!